Chimes at Midnight

This must happen to 
This must happen to anyone who lives
a long time, looking back across the years
and decades to the days when we were young
and the world stretched out before us
like an endless highway or an ocean
we would never reach the other side.

But now we hear the chimes at midnight
as I lie beside you with my mind too full
of our mortality, and my heart breaking
at the memory of the times I failed you,
treated you unkindly, made so many
selfish choices that I can’t undo.

My life’s companion, truest friend,
it’s no cliché to say that you deserved
far better than you got while I got
more than I deserved.  You’ll disagree,
but that’s because I really did
get more than I ever deserved.

And though I still can’t make myself believe,
I think I finally understand why
people want to think there really is
a heaven.  As our lives draw ever closer
to their end, I can’t avoid my sadness
at the thought of all eternity without you.

W. D. Ehrhart's most recent books are a 2025 collection of poems, Smart Fish Don't Bite from Moonstone Arts, and Getting Shot At: Essays on War, Conflict & Culture Clash, forthcoming in 2026 from McFarland & Company, Inc. He holds a Ph.D. from the University of Wales at Swansea and taught English and history at The Haverford School from 2001 to 2019.